Like meh
my right side is infected again for no given reason (like microsoft support when they kill your account and all your online data that was save from hard drive crashes disappears together with all your skype and other contacts "for no reasons given" to the point where after 3 days you find a living entity who eventually replies "we dont have to give you a reason")
that was years ago, i more or less quit chatting around the globe from la paz to mongolia and back after that
and humans havent proven themselves to be anything i didnt expect them to be after several decades of observation
and in se , the world is going as predicted
which isnt a great view, but neither is this life
so there is symmetry
Hidden Wonders by Desire
...
I dont know, if you see a big name, desire, nah-kolor or fairlight (csdb has been quiet for a while) you expect to see that 40 years of daily MOS come to a climax every time
the plus 4 might not be the 64 but it has more colors, it was more business-oriented (back then they thought more colors was better for word processing or something) has no hardware sprites and whatever and uses skeevy spectrum like tricks to mock the same palette into 8 times more luminance shades
so ... well its not bad and certainly better than what we could achieve on a plus 4 .. but, you know its Desire and all that AND ofcourse in everything i see today, A.I. paranoia strikes
the further it goes the less i trust humans to be truthful about its involvement
its killing the fun
(and a few jobs here and there i heard) but let that not spoil the fun
otherwise
life sucks, there is no future, i have no way out of this place, running on my 5th month of no income, i sleep MORE than before because they overstretched it (i suspect een snood barbarian plan to cure me once more, they never learn) and
i dont know the tv so i never turn on what a trump is and
havent further improved the audiovisuals on the jag game since last time and
the C64 game feels like home but after a break on a selection system (running from ROM so its a bit harder since you cant have modifying code and all that) last night it felt like someone put Turing killers in the water (again) and i spent most of it staring into the void
and
i dont know, im everyone has great times because i see lots of shiney cars and stuff
euhmmmm
i see STEEM is gonna save the pensioners retirement funds even more than before
i see BTC owners probably complain BECAUSE IT WENT DOWN 25%
did it now ...
and
in general , everything except the cat and retrocomputers is complete and utter shyte
but my mental flatline doesnt really feel about it
nobody wants to hear the bad news
i noticed .... not just that since the 1980s i remember netwerk en radio katanga -gangers walking around with what they called "arafat shawls" and belgium was out of money so everyone has to chip in and ITS REALLY no longer doable ...
ive been watching .. its like a rerun of that shitty friends series going on since the 80s really "life" as seen on tv
its also that i noticed "the" news going from 35% sports now to "starts with a sports headline" talks 5 minutes about Trump, NOW SPORTS ... i think its about 80% circenses, and maybe because there's less panem but more shiney cars AND SMARTPHONES ARE CHEAPER DUE TO A DEAL WITH INDIA !
Just being realistic , i can not be honest be myself and say that there is any reason to be positive , that christian thing where they go , HEY you only got two fingers and one leg , LOOK AT THAT GUY HE ONLY HAS one finger left, REJOICE GOD IS WITH YOU PEOPLE HAVE IT WORSE
madagascar has been starving for 30 years ... BRICS is 20+ years old and no one here has heard about it ...
it doesn't make my situation feel better
We call that wanking off on other peoples misery
well it doesnt work for me, just because someone else has less panem doesnt make MY LIFE RIGHT , that dopamine jackpot the church survives on ? doesnt work
nothing really works anymore
BESIDES the universe demands balance, if i dont, then it will topple over to the fake-positive side and we will all roll off into the abyss
wont we ?
