I could leave you with the word "WHY"... It would fit to nearly everything. Why is it you let this happen, why don't you leave, why is it you sink deeper with help?

Would you be creative without this? Do you count on the anxiety to be absent for ever? Are you aware that menopause starts ten years before the period ends and a lack of vitamine D and hormons increase depressions and anxiety? That many women with menopause suffer from anxiety and it's not said that it will ever end? To many it won't, never. So the question left is: Why are you still here, what keeps you from leaving, what pushes you to not give up?

Did you slam the door and let them rot?
Would you accept help and leave if offered? Are you able to start all new?