A meal with meaning, I found it hard to write about it. Now I might come up with something. I recognised a lot of what you wrote. These are days and periods in my life I recognise.
I was without food for a big part of my childhood and next as a new parent. Today I am without simply because I feel I no longer need it. In a way it feels like a relieve (fewer shopping for groceries).
The only meal with meaning today is if I accompany my friend and he eats.