SLC-S31/W6-“Creative Interpretation| The Concept -Becoming”

I'm drowning in their expectations, in their words of pride that don't reflect my own desires, in their advice that dims my light, in their praise for actions performed according to a script. Their smiles and the sparkle in their eyes when they boast about my achievements make me happy, even though I find no value in those achievements. I wonder, what will happen if I don't meet their expectations?

Years go by and I'm still trapped in the mold. Although sometimes I want to take a different path, fear paralyzes me because I don't want their eyes to fill with disappointment; I prefer to remain silent. But then, why do I feel this emptiness?

I'm tired, I can't take another step. I will raise my eyes to the sky and decide to follow my own path. Now is the time to close my eyes and listen only to my soul. I will let the night take away my fears and the guilt for not being what they expect of me. Anxiety overwhelms me because of the uncertainty, but at the same time I feel peace, because now I will be the one to write the script of my life.

In my drawing, I depict the transformation of a person who has lived pleasing others to the point of lacking their own identity, and then decides to live for themselves. It's a transformative process that fills the person with peace and lifts the weight they carried from the expectations they felt they had to meet.

The drawing is full of symbolism. A woman is depicted sitting, having paused to think more clearly, her face turned toward the full moon, which represents her decision to follow her own path. Her eyes are closed, signifying that for the first time she has chosen to listen to what she truly desires. The fireflies represent these new ideas and desires being born, and the butterfly symbolizes metamorphosis, peace of mind, and freedom.

The biggest challenge is the fear of disappointment and disapproval from those who control their lives. There's also the fear of failing because of their own decisions and how others will react. And then there's the fear of making decisions; when we get used to others deciding for us, it becomes difficult to make decisions for ourselves, and we tend to doubt ourselves a lot or change our minds frequently.

I based it on my own experience. From childhood until my teens, I used to do almost everything I was told, as if I had no opinions of my own. That life was extremely exhausting and lonely, although it also had a certain degree of comfort because I basically didn't have to think about much of anything, but because of it I suffered from depression, so I decided to change my life. That decision gave me a lot of peace; the path wasn't easy, but I felt lighter.